I had another theatre workshop yesterday. The schedule of up to 2 sessions per month works really well; the time spent is intense but there’s enough space in between to tackle the work solo. Other than attendance, there’s free reign to do as much or little as either desired or is practical. We’re all starting to warm up & feel comfortable so I’m looking forward to learning more about everyone’s ideas.
This week was boringly useful for admin and bureaucracy. Now that I’m back at work, my bed time has gone up like whoa (over 21 hours more this week versus a fortnight ago!) so I’m starting to schedule things.
This includes actively planning to be a ~good student~. I’m defining this as: learning as much as I can by not locking it in a bubble, producing work that is useful (to me + hopefully wider), and passing everything without being an obsessive perfectionist or sabotaging myself. A reason I chose to study part-time was so I’m not in an academic sanctuary & can apply things to “real life” straight away; it’s counterproductive to zero in on school at the exclusion of all else.
I have a tutor allocated for my course & three in-person dates. Unfortunately these are in London. Extra unfortunately, the first one is this weekend and there’s train line maintenance on my route. Cue days of public transport logistics hassle. It’s these kind of times that not driving or having car access seem less viable long-term, even though they usually have minimal impact and I have no real intention of change.
Pragmatism! Fundamentally it’s not feasible and not going has more benefits (although not sociability or ~excitement). The important things are: learning, creating work and passing the course. (Passing is explicitly needed as much as that’s counter to my approach; I need to focus on admin deadlines this time rather than just learning, as that’s how I’ve missed course credits before. Cognitive dissonance. See also: having to finish by 2017.)
If I spent the tutorial hours at home studying, I’d be better placed. If I spent the tutorial + commute hours studying, I’d be much better off. And if I spent tutorial + commute + recovery time studying, I’d have gained at least a week which is ridiculous. There are three tutorials through my nine month course. It would be nice (but not crucial) to make at least one.
I was hoping to go to the Paines Plough installation (theatre! place! hometowns! history! multiple writers! audio recordings!) at the Southbank Centre afterwards (across the river from my tutorial at an LSE building), so I hope there’ll be another way to access that in the future. Theatre from a distance sounds paradoxical but maybe not; transmitted is better than missed. The description says they’ll be launching an app. Fingers crossed there’ll also be a browser-friendly version for people who don’t have access to a smartphone or tablet.
The solution to subsequent disappointment is to just stop expecting to go to things in person. Now: unless it’s my day job, limited local arts or an annual adventure, I’m expecting attendance to be the exception rather than the rule. Focusing my energy closer to home. Winter hibernation = reading, learning, writing, thinking.